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Take note that everything you read on this blog might not be true nor d grammar and spelling accuracy.So why read at all?Bcuz there's a calling,an ancient magic at work that just compels u to visit me off n on even though you are pretty sure there won't be an update.So fellow visitors,welcome n do not resist that natural pull which demands you to drop by.On a much softer note, this is just a place where i vent my feelings,share my stories,understand myself better n get lost in my own thoughts...

Its that time again

| at 17:48

Well it seems like only yesterday I was waiting for him to arrive at the airport..was in daze at that point of time..so super happy and high to see him again..only to have my hopes dashed when all he came back for was to only leave me for good this time around. That was the anger in me at that point of time. Its been a year now. I dont hate him that much anymore as at least he gave me the chance to spend his last moments in this world together. I love you Carlson Kyne Joseph. I love every single bit of you.

"Dear Baby, 11th of August 2009, its your birthday again..although you are no longer around, I just wanna say what I wanna say. First things first, I wanna say I love you. I love you today even more than I did yesterday...ssssooo cheesey, I KNOW..Hahaha but it has always been that way isnt it? Hope you're doing fine wherever you are..I miss you everyday and I secretly hope all this is just a dream and I am just so tired that it took me so long to wake up. You meant everything to me and you still mean the world to me. The happiness you brought me can never be described or put into words no matter hard how I try. Just know that I am still pist that you had to leave me but somehow I love you..so Happy Birthday Baby, I'll love you always...

--Sharm--"

I guess I am kinda moving on, doing my own thing and hoping that everyday would just pass by without any hassel. Thanks for the notes. Its helping but sometings kan its quite emo-ing. Haha I love you baby. I called your UK number just so I could hear your voice again. Listened to it for like 30 times. It felt so surreal cuz a part of me wanted to believe that it really was you talking but then I had to just pull myself away from the phone and tell myself its all not what it seems..Baby,be good wherever you are..remember that I love you..Happy Birthday..!!

ps : its his birthday but I received a present..