Just that day again
I woke up this morning feeling very happy. Probably its the good peaceful sleep I had last night. Then as the day pass I started thinking of him. If he was still around it would be 3 years and 9 months. Time sure pass quickly. I know I am happy and not wallowing but somehow I want him with me right now. Just need that safe feeling in me again. To know that everything's gonna be fine. Oh baby, I love you so much.
Honestly I wonder why did you have to leave so fast. Would it had make any difference if you went to the hospital earlier? All that time you used to talk to me till I slept off. If only you weren't so tired maybe you would have gone to the hospital a day earlier and who knows maybe that ONE day would have lead to a different ending. Well its all "what if" now. I miss you dearly. Holidays that we have spent together. Lame jokes we shared and all those stupid arguements we have had.
It may not make a difference on what I say but I just wanna say it out loud that I am so happy and proud to say that I have had you in my life and am so grateful for that. I wouldnt even dream of exchanging any of our memories for all the treasures in the world. You thought how to love and how to accept myself for who I am. You made me realise that I deserve to be loved. You made me feel like I am on top of the world all the time.
Well its all just memories now, memories that I'll cherish in me all the time. I had the chance to love and be loved by the sweetest person ever. I love you. Wherever you may be, know that I am down here thinking of you and also pulling through each day I am down by the thought of you in my mind. Rest well my love. I love you.
--just a random post for my loved one--
*smiles*
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